My thoughts on the letter C… Nothing stands out more than Cancer.
In early october of 2014 my dad started having back pains; the reoccuring trouble of a lifelong athlete. Speaking to him on the phone I nonchalantly told him to go to the chiropractor and have his kinks worked out as he had done so many times before. After a few weeks of regular visits, the pain seemed to get worse instead of better. My mom was worried sick.
They were in Kentucky and I was a continent away in North Africa where I had been living and working for three years. There was only so much I could say or do being so far away. But I was worried even more than my mom was. If something happened to my dad, who would be there to take care of her? Towards the end of October she called me and said his pain is worse and he is hoarse with a bad cough. I knew. He went in for tests. They found cancer, they said. A spot on his lungs, they said. I was hopeful. There is surgery, there is chemo. There are options. There is a chance.
But a week later he was dead. And I never got to say goodbye.
Soon after I stopped blogging here, I just stopped blogging. Not only did I give up my blogs, but I gave up writing altogether as well as anything creative. Why, I can’t really say. Depression, lack of will, lack of time, boredom, lack of ideas, not giving a damn…
My dad died suddenly in November and I’ve been bombarded with so many emotions and writing has always been my way to cope, to express, etc. So now I find myself again searching for an outlet to share my pain, my grief, my guilt, even my happiness. As my dad always supported my creative endeavors and would be disappointed at my doing nothing. I started a new wordpress for this purpose, thinking that this one had been deleted. I can’t express how delighted and refreshed I feel reading through my old posts, rereading poems that I wrote so seemingly long ago.
For a while now, I’ve been a member of the secondlife virtual community. Recently I became involved with a group of artists in an online university setting, so to speak; like-minded individuals creating and sharing. This has also inspired me in many ways to get back into the arts. Something in my soul is crying out for my return to this world, and so here I am.
Too Hoo! It seems I’ve been nominated for this beautiful and mysterious award! I was nominated by the incredible alien-time lord-poet over at Stellular Scribe (thank you much)! Stellular scribe is quite an inspiring blog (hence their nomination), writing beautiful poetry and works for short fiction, as well as advice for other writers. This multi-talented writer is also a musician and aspiring painter. Please do check it out.
There are some rules:
Thank and link to the amazing person who nominated you.
List the rules and display the award.
Share seven facts about yourself.
Nominate 15 other amazing blogs and comment on their posts to let them know they have been nominated.
Proudly display the award logo on your blog and follow the blogger who nominated you.
So here are my 7 facts::
I am a Southern girl!
I am currently living in North Africa
I think pepper-jack cheese is man’s finest creation.
When I was younger, I would read the encyclopedia for fun.
I was a passionate Spanish learner until coming to Africa, where I can’t get Arabic out of my head.
I have been an ‘artist’ all my life. In my adolescence, I would mold clay into the likenesses of family members, and as I got older, I was painting landscapes.
I am quite neurotic.
Congrats and good luck to the other nominees. I will update this post shortly to say a few words about the blogs that I have nominated.